Taking on Goliath (And Winning)

  Facing Negative Symptoms and Unwanted Side Effects From my Psyche Meds Which are Taken for My Schizoaffective Disorder               My daily routine varies from day to day. Sometimes there are more items on my to-do list than others. I spread my list throughout the week so I will have something to do on any given day. Today might as well have been a free day since the only thing I felt like I needed to do was to take a walk and start a new book on audible.             I know I cannot predict the symptoms of my schizoaffective diagnosis. Just like I cannot predict the side effects of the medication I take for my mental health diagnosis. Looking back on today, however, I feel like I should have more receptive to my feelings about taking a day off for rest instead of pushing myself to walk when I did not want to do so. I continued my walk, but the feelings of laz...

  Managing Schizophrenia in Paris Schizophrenia Bulletin,sbaf129, https://doi.org/10.093/schul/sbaf129 Published: 13 August 2025             I enjoy going on vacation especially when it is out of the country. Vacations can create stressors like tiredness. Just being away from the norms in your life can be a stressor. Also traveling to your destination can be stressful enough. I realize I might need different distractions to help me travel to my vacation spot. The distractions from artwork to the attractions in Paris can help me get through the vacation. These sights can help me get lost in the moment and help me manage my schizophrenia. I might have been experiencing stress from the anticipation of a trip to Paris with my parents. The stressors may have caused hallucinations that lasted longer than my usual shadowy figures and images that only last a blink of an eye.         ...

 Teach them to be self aware Schizophrenia Bulletin, Volume 39, Issue 3, Published 01 November 2012 https://doi.org/10.1093/schbul/sbs126 Several Schizophrenics think that their voices and delusions are true. I have been on my medications for years now, and even I have to tell myself that I am not that popular. You probably think that sounds simple enough. If I don’t do that I do my best to ignore them.  I believe that most schizophrenics do hear positive voices in their head. I thought I could hear the voice of God, and it was God who told me to refer myself to mental health at Fort Irwin California. I also thought it was a voice of God who told me that I will get the help I needed in my second stay in the psyche ward. Believe it or not I think it was that voice that helped me to be self aware to question what I was feeling or in some cases ask if something was really going on. I sometimes hear negative voices too. They can be insulting and they can tell me to kill myself...

 Never Mind... I Have Car Insurance Schizophrenia Bulletin, Volume 46, Issue 2 Published 28 November 2018 https://doi.org/10.1093/schbul/sby174  I had a full time job at an Italian restaurant, and I was flunking out of college. I was just in a relationship that ended badly, and I thought the friends of my former girlfriend were spreading rumors about me. When I was by myself or walking to my job, I often heard mean voices calling me a loser and other bad things. I had stopped going to class because the voices in my head coming from two people or a crowd were making me feel inadequate and alienated. I thought they were making fun of me, for whatever reason.  I know now it was the start of a break down.  The only thing that was going good for me was that I had good loyal friends that would do whatever I asked them to do. They would listen to me, but they did not have the help that I needed.  As I tried to reach out to them, I know now that some of my behavior ...

 The Lifestyle Change When I was in my twenties and early thirties, I enjoyed drinking alcohol with my friends. It wiped away my inhibitions, and I felt invincible. I understand why some might enjoy alcoholic beverages, but when you consume as  I did--five or six times a week and several beers at a time, drinking alcohol becomes unhealthy, not to mention expensive. When I was drinking I was not trying to escape life or running from anything, I just liked the way it made me feel. A cigarette and a beer was all I needed to relax, and I did that with a very regular frequency! I remember one particular Friday night I decided to count how many beers I drank that day and evening.  I bought a twelve pack of beer from the grocery store which I drank throughout the day.  After that I went to a nearby bar and had seven more beers. Yes, that's nineteen beers in a twenty-four hour period.  Clearly I had a serious problem.  I could not have just one beer and stop....

  Coping with My Delusions Schizophrenia Bulletin, volume 47, Issue 4, July 2021, Page 888 https://doi.org/10.1093/schbul/sbaa189 Published: 22 January 2021                             One of the common symptoms of my schizophrenia is that, on occasion, I have delusions. I try to do everything I can to manage my symptoms, but I do have a mental illness that has no cure, even though it can be controlled by medication.   My delusions are sometimes like stories in my mind often accompanied by pictures and the voices of people I might not have seen for many years.   The fact that a delusion involves familiar people or places makes it seems even more real.   That is why it took me awhile to accept that these delusions were not based in reality.             An example of a recent delus...