To Live Out Loud

 And in the grips of insanity

what carries my hope

What keeps me laughing

when the voices seem to control my mood?

I've often joked, "Once you've lost it, you can't lose it again." 

I laugh, 

but know one else does

Normal-- so boring you might sa.

When my imperfections shine 

like the lines of poetry

I am a writer

Unnoticed,

However, changed by the real world.

In adulthood I value my smile

The struggle is beautiful, 

once you can look back on it.

Now I have settled,

But these words might say otherwise. 

I am alone in the bliss

As a young man 

No one told me I would be content at this age.

I laugh, 

I sing,

I dance,

But there is still fear

that I am trying to ignore--

I ignore, that I might live out loud. 

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